What am i waiting for?

So its been awhile since i've blogged bout anything, mainly due to my busy schedule.
Over the past few weeks i've been doing lots of thinking, mostly bout my future. I cant help but wonder where i'll be in the next few yrs to come. I start to think if i'll be still where i am right now, just living my life day by day...waiting for a promotion, waiting for somebody, waiting for my bank balance to increase...basically waiting to progress into the next stage of life.

As much i dun want to admit it, seeing my friends get married, have babies, start their own businesses...i'm starting to feel like i'm going no where in life. Its been difficult with the recent events, getting out of a relationship, adapting back to city life, having a member of the family diagnosed terminally, being told that i've a certain medical condition as well...not to mention the additional stress & responsibilty at work. I'm probably just feeling pityful with myself. Sometimes i wish i could just go back a year or two...and enjoy tat moment again. Come to think bout it, it was one of the happiest moments of my life. But alas, life goes on.

So i've been getting involved in more physical activities recently, mainly due to health reasons, add more variety into my daily routine but mostly to keep my mind distracted from the real world. The last time i was tis physically active was back during my band days. I missed those days...no worries...no responsibilities...just had to made sure i memorised my musical notes n steps. Back to the present day, i'm very thankful & grateful for the few friends i have around me, u guys have been really supportive & helpful. Eventhough i dun show it...i'm really thankful. So thanks!

So here i am now....waiting for the next activity,be it golf, badminton, futsal (my legs ache like a b*tch now), or hopefully some cycling or paintball tis weekend. I've been waiting my whole life... i dun know if i'll be dissapointed and disgruntled one day. But i hope i'll be ok. Maybe all i need is a sign. All i need is an indication.